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Thursday, August 26, 2010

Deception

He slowly walks among them
ready to take the blame
ready to take anything actually
Frowns
it was all he saw

Deception: that is what he was guilty for

"Outsider!"

"Betrayer!"

"Trouble maker!"

Names rang everywhere
Forgiveness did not exist for him
And it never will

"EXILE!"

He is not one of them

Deception: is all he is known for

and all he will be remembered for

All he will be remembered for

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Acceptance Is All We Plead For

Throughout the few years of life I've lived, I've seen humans as a combination of many different things. Some of those things being: kind, loving, emotional, caring, cruel, harsh, mean and rude. The list can go on for almost as long as an English dictionary itself. Humans as well, have a tendency of putting things into categories, including people. We as well have habits of keeping everything we dislike away from us, and everything we like, and only like, allowed near us. If that made any sense.

Media, it's everywhere. This is the number one negative influence on our minds. Things can only be a certain way, and if not a certain way, then they are wrong; instantly those things become outsiders. One must be skinny, another must have straight hair, this one must have good taste in clothing, and if this one eats that then this one is a "weirdo". Only certain things are in style, and if you don't have those wonderful in-style things, then out you go. You're not welcome into this great world of acceptance. I sit here and wonder, "where have all the good things gone?". There are still good things out there, I've realized. There are still good people. But is there really still only good itself?

Today, many people suffer of self hate because they are not what others like. I myself am one of those victims. I grew up being constantly teased because of my weight, always put down because I wasn't skinny like the others in my class, used an unbelievable amount of times because of my kindness towards others and my sensitivity. I would cry almost everyday. And me, thinking I couldn't do anything about it I never told my parents until I hit the end of 6th grade. I've learned though, that even running away, and trying to escape such things, was actually impossible. No matter what, we would all hit these obstacles, even if we are experienced drivers in life. There will always be someone around to step on you, to bring you down, to anger you, to agitate you, to laugh at you instead of with you, to make fun of you, to gossip about you, to hurt you, to beat you; there will always be someone like that around.

Those who put others down, and do things like the ones I've just listed, they as well get their share of pain and suffering. There is not one person in this world who has not had something happen to them that has made them angry and or sad. Like they say, What goes around, Comes around.

The scars left on me from the past I've realized will never heal. Even when I don't think about it for long periods of time, it somehow always comes back. The memories, along with the anger held inside. it's something that stays with you forever...

I would like to let those who have been hurt know: You are not alone.

And to those who hurt others: You will all get your turn of pain, and soon feel what you've made others feel.

Because as humans...acceptance is all we plead for.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

LoboLunar: awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww at chuuuu ;_;
Guest_Haru911: nu awwwwwwwwwwww at chu ;-;
LoboLunar: nooo awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww at chuuuuuuu ;______;
Guest_Haru911: nuuu awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww at chuuuuuuuu ;________;
LoboLunar: noooooooo awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww at chuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu ;_________________________________;
Guest_Haru911: even awws? ;-;
LoboLunar: ;_; oks
Guest_Haru911: yay, ;-;
LoboLunar: yayness ;_;


i love you <3>

Thursday, June 3, 2010

FUDGE ALLERGIES

UGH been sneezing all day and got real bad sore throat and headache and stuffy nose x.x

GOSH xD why always in summer or before and after summer I gotta get sick.

DAMN YOU POLLEN T_T

Don't remember if I told but yeah been like half death all week xD

My right ear opened, then left ear decided to close. it's opening more but still not completely xD cause it wants to be bitch.

YERPYEEERRP

anywayz~

I'm tired.

My throat keep annoying me, swallowing even hurts D: and mouth tastes so dry. On the up side - been happy with the new gf :'D

18 days together so far~

Yeah Allie's awesome :o she's so nice and just easy to talk to and crap.

>XD I only get upset at her with her pot issue, SHE LOVES POT i worry for her health but I've already been warned I can't stop her xD So I just give up and time to time make lil comments like "you better love me more than that crap" n junk xD and she says ofc I love you more :'D

she can be so damn cute too at times o.O like my gawd, never saw that side before xD

but her DAMN GRANDMA took her stuff away ;_; cuz she mailed maths.

T_T makes me wanna smack her grandmama, and I was hoping for her to at least still have cell phone, but that's a no no apparently o.o

Let's just hope this doesn't go on for long xD

I might be punished too if I don't pass my classes o.O and I already know passing is definitely NOT happening.

Let's just hope I find ways to keep my stuff. Mom already gave me that "don't worry" look when dad was talking to me about this xD so I get the feeling he'll let me keep cuz of my great persuasive skills :3

teeeeeheeeee

Ok, I think I'm gonna head to bed, my whole head is driving me nuts, lots of pain D:

LET'S HOPE I'M BETTER TOMORROW

LATERZ

Sunday, May 30, 2010

my new blog~

I'll be writing here from now on~

k bye xD

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Deception

He slowly walks among them
ready to take the blame
ready to take anything actually
Frowns
it was all he saw

Deception: that is what he was guilty for

"Outsider!"

"Betrayer!"

"Trouble maker!"

Names rang everywhere
Forgiveness did not exist for him
And it never will

"EXILE!"

He is not one of them

Deception: is all he is known for

and all he will be remembered for

All he will be remembered for

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Acceptance Is All We Plead For

Throughout the few years of life I've lived, I've seen humans as a combination of many different things. Some of those things being: kind, loving, emotional, caring, cruel, harsh, mean and rude. The list can go on for almost as long as an English dictionary itself. Humans as well, have a tendency of putting things into categories, including people. We as well have habits of keeping everything we dislike away from us, and everything we like, and only like, allowed near us. If that made any sense.

Media, it's everywhere. This is the number one negative influence on our minds. Things can only be a certain way, and if not a certain way, then they are wrong; instantly those things become outsiders. One must be skinny, another must have straight hair, this one must have good taste in clothing, and if this one eats that then this one is a "weirdo". Only certain things are in style, and if you don't have those wonderful in-style things, then out you go. You're not welcome into this great world of acceptance. I sit here and wonder, "where have all the good things gone?". There are still good things out there, I've realized. There are still good people. But is there really still only good itself?

Today, many people suffer of self hate because they are not what others like. I myself am one of those victims. I grew up being constantly teased because of my weight, always put down because I wasn't skinny like the others in my class, used an unbelievable amount of times because of my kindness towards others and my sensitivity. I would cry almost everyday. And me, thinking I couldn't do anything about it I never told my parents until I hit the end of 6th grade. I've learned though, that even running away, and trying to escape such things, was actually impossible. No matter what, we would all hit these obstacles, even if we are experienced drivers in life. There will always be someone around to step on you, to bring you down, to anger you, to agitate you, to laugh at you instead of with you, to make fun of you, to gossip about you, to hurt you, to beat you; there will always be someone like that around.

Those who put others down, and do things like the ones I've just listed, they as well get their share of pain and suffering. There is not one person in this world who has not had something happen to them that has made them angry and or sad. Like they say, What goes around, Comes around.

The scars left on me from the past I've realized will never heal. Even when I don't think about it for long periods of time, it somehow always comes back. The memories, along with the anger held inside. it's something that stays with you forever...

I would like to let those who have been hurt know: You are not alone.

And to those who hurt others: You will all get your turn of pain, and soon feel what you've made others feel.

Because as humans...acceptance is all we plead for.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

LoboLunar: awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww at chuuuu ;_;
Guest_Haru911: nu awwwwwwwwwwww at chu ;-;
LoboLunar: nooo awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww at chuuuuuuu ;______;
Guest_Haru911: nuuu awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww at chuuuuuuuu ;________;
LoboLunar: noooooooo awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww at chuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu ;_________________________________;
Guest_Haru911: even awws? ;-;
LoboLunar: ;_; oks
Guest_Haru911: yay, ;-;
LoboLunar: yayness ;_;


i love you <3>

Thursday, June 3, 2010

FUDGE ALLERGIES

UGH been sneezing all day and got real bad sore throat and headache and stuffy nose x.x

GOSH xD why always in summer or before and after summer I gotta get sick.

DAMN YOU POLLEN T_T

Don't remember if I told but yeah been like half death all week xD

My right ear opened, then left ear decided to close. it's opening more but still not completely xD cause it wants to be bitch.

YERPYEEERRP

anywayz~

I'm tired.

My throat keep annoying me, swallowing even hurts D: and mouth tastes so dry. On the up side - been happy with the new gf :'D

18 days together so far~

Yeah Allie's awesome :o she's so nice and just easy to talk to and crap.

>XD I only get upset at her with her pot issue, SHE LOVES POT i worry for her health but I've already been warned I can't stop her xD So I just give up and time to time make lil comments like "you better love me more than that crap" n junk xD and she says ofc I love you more :'D

she can be so damn cute too at times o.O like my gawd, never saw that side before xD

but her DAMN GRANDMA took her stuff away ;_; cuz she mailed maths.

T_T makes me wanna smack her grandmama, and I was hoping for her to at least still have cell phone, but that's a no no apparently o.o

Let's just hope this doesn't go on for long xD

I might be punished too if I don't pass my classes o.O and I already know passing is definitely NOT happening.

Let's just hope I find ways to keep my stuff. Mom already gave me that "don't worry" look when dad was talking to me about this xD so I get the feeling he'll let me keep cuz of my great persuasive skills :3

teeeeeheeeee

Ok, I think I'm gonna head to bed, my whole head is driving me nuts, lots of pain D:

LET'S HOPE I'M BETTER TOMORROW

LATERZ

Sunday, May 30, 2010

my new blog~

I'll be writing here from now on~

k bye xD

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The name's Alex. A female teen with as many emotions as 10,000 people combined. Pisces. Artist. Writer. Poet. Singer. A Learner. A Music Lover. A Human Being. Just Me, and Me Alone.

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